Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Cracker
First off, I've only held down 3 of the meals I've eaten in the past week. I don't know what's wrong with me, but literally everything I eat has me hunched over the toilet 30 minutes later, and it fucking sucks. Thank god for breathmints and the 7 pounds I've lost.
Secondly, I've turned into a psychotic bitch. Since my surgery, my hormones have been out of control. Really. Poor Andrew, has had to deal with me constantly bitching, yelling, complaining, and randomly bursting into tears for no fucking reason. Do you have any idea how embarrassing that is? It sucks. Luckily, though, I am pain free. No more cysts, no more endometriosis. Yay!
Anyways, that's the reason I haven't been blogging. I've been angry and sad, and when I'm not either of those 2 things, I am projectile vomitting. Woo!
Now, I want to discuss Paula Deen. I know, I know, everyone is talking about it, blah blah blah. Really though, I don't understand what the fucking big deal is. She said the 'n' word. So what! Who hasn't called their friends their 'niggas'? And why the fuck is it okay for rappers to use this word constantly, but she says it TWENTY FUCKING YEARS AGO and she gets fired? Why?
Honestly, I don't think I know one person who has never used a racial slur. Whether it be the 'n' word, cracker, chink, WHATEVER. Everyone I know has said it, thought it, sang it, or implied it. And if you're going to deny that, then you are a liar. How many white people call themselves 'cracker' as a fucking joke? Everyone. Seriously, the only reason they're considered 'offensive' is because someone has a stick up their ass, and is going to get offended by ANYTHING they want, even if it's really not offensive.
Yes, a lot of racial slurs used to carry heavy meaning to them, but they're thrown around so often now, that they have lost their weight in society. Obviously, I don't get offended by them. But that shouldn't be a surprise considering my constant use of the fuck word, and my occasional use of the 'c' word (when absolutely necessary. I will not use it in my blog to spare some offense to my readers).
Anyways, if you get offended by something someone does, then don't fucking be around that person/watch their T.V show/listen to their music. End of story. Don't fucking ruin their career/life/social status because of it. And pull that stick out of your ass before you get a splinter.
Friday, June 28, 2013
A Truck with Big Chains
A big truck, full of chains and negativity, rolled into my apartment complex sometime during the night while I slumbered. I'm sure it was a violent affair, and I'm glad I didn't have to watch. I only had to see the aftermath.
I walked out to my car to leave for work, and it was gone. There was nothing left but a coned-off space of asphalt, void of any vehicles.
I don't quite remember what happened next. All of a sudden, I was within the apartment walls, calling my boss to tell her of my sad fortune.
Fuck you, tow truck. And fuck you, to my apartment complex, for towing my car.
You see, I was told that my car had to be moved by 8 in the morning on this day. I thought, good. I leave for work at 7, allowing plenty of time for them before the deadline. But they moved my car before that. They moved it, not acknowledging the notice that they sent out, and not informing the tenants who parked there that the deadline has been printed wrong.
Luckily, the towing charges have been covered, by them, for being assholes. Fuck you, Pinnacle apartment complex. Fuck you.
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Black Hole of Love
Monday, June 10, 2013
Milestones and America
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
An Interracial Cheerios Relationship
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Naked Head
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Desperate Facebookers
Friday, May 24, 2013
Pepsi of the Gods
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Here Comes Adulthood
We were so cute.. |
H as in Homosexual
- When someone calls without the correct informations, and then says "I knew I was going to need that, but I didn't grab it." Then, they put me on hold and make me wait for them, instead of just having all the things they're going to need to fucking start with. Really?
- Getting mad at me for having the wrong phone number in the system.
- When people call, and I answer the phone and am on hold immediately. I'm sorry, but if you can't even wait until I answer to put me on hold, then we are done here.
- When they call, and are having a conversation with someone else instead of giving you their full attention. What the fuck? If you don't want to talk to me then DON'T FUCKING CALL. Your other conversation can wait until we are done here.
- The other day, I had some guy yell at me because I didn't know his phone number. He insisted that it was the same as everyone else on file for his company, when, in reality, everyone had a different fucking phone number. He then called me a liar and hung up.
- I start with "HP this is Shaye" when I answer the phone. I am obviously a girl, with a very high-pitched voice. Yet people insist on calling me 'sir', saying "Oh how funny I have a son named Shaye" or calling me Chase or Shayne. Stop it. I am a fucking lady.
- Someone will call in a request, and call back 15 minutes later demanding to know why our technician isn't there yet. Because you aren't a fucking princess, and you aren't the only customer. So shut the fuck up and be patient.
Monday, May 20, 2013
Baby Maker
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Welcome to Our Home, Bitch
Sunday, May 12, 2013
After Operation and the New Kitty
Holy fuck. It has been too long, readers. I am so sorry.
First off, surgery went well!! I am feeling so much better than I have in weeks... And I don't even have my stitches out yet.
Getting back to my normal lifestyle has been hard. Walking through Walmart is exhausting, my stomach is so swollen I still cannot button my pants, and I may or may not still be fucked up on pain meds. But I am still doing better now than I was before surgery. Woopity fucking doo.
Since the last time I posted, the cat came home. Holy shit. This has been a hard transition.
The devil lives inside of TomPaco.
Now, this is a cat who may or may not be a boy. We thought he was a boy, but upon careful observation... Well.... He has a vagina. Fuck. Whatever. Its name is still TomPaco.
He growls like a dog.
He will climb up your leg using his claws, whether you have pants on or not.
He likes water.
He also likes the crawl on your chest, and back up until his butthole is touching your face. Ew.
He's kinda cute, and him and Tito get along really well, which wasn't the case at first. Luckily they transitioned well, and did it fast. First they were biting and clawing each other , and now they cuddle and play.
So, he may be the devil, but I think we'll keep him.
Thursday, May 2, 2013
My Mom
Yesterday when I got off work, my mom took me to my doctor and then out to get a hamburger and a rainbow to make me feel better. (For those of you who don't know what a rainbow is, it's a slush puppy with vanilla ice cream. Best thing ever.) As I was spending the day with her, I came to the realization more and more that this is my mom.
To keep you in the loop, my biological mother and I had a falling out recently. She has been abandoned by all of her family, including her other three children. I stuck by her side for years, because I was the only one who had faith that she would turn her life around and start acting like an adult. For a while there, she did. Until the other day, when she took it upon herself to drive to Washington, take my grandma out of her care facility and run. And then she had the audacity to tell me off for being a backstabbing daughter.
Needless to say, we are no longer in contact with each other.
This took a hit on me. Why the fuck would she tell me off, when I was the one that stood by her all these years? I felt like, at the age of 20 years old, my mother had told me that I was no longer wanted, and that she was putting me up for adoption. It took a few days to come to terms with the fact that the reason was this: She is not my mom.
Luckily, I have a mom. She is married to my dad, and has been since I was three years old. As I've been going through all of these issues with my health, she has been there, holding my hand, talking to the doctors, and driving me to my appointments.
We have had our ups and downs, and there were times when we didn't even talk to each other for months on end. We disagree on things, and we fight, but every mother/daughter relationship is like that.
I am so glad that I have her in my life right now, helping me to fight through my emotional and physical battles that I've been facing. She has held my hand and walked with me through all of this. Her and my dad were by the side of my hospital bed when I was taken to the E.R. and she has not hesitated to leave work, so that she could be with me at every doctor appointment.
She is my mom. And I love her.
Monday, April 22, 2013
Sometimes I Write
Mine's shrinking away
Shriveling to nothing
Isn't that what they say?
The seasons are changing
The colors are gone
We're eating our heartbreak
We're feasting on blood
The words in our mouths
Are filling the room
Death in inevitable
Our souls extinct soon
We're using our love
As weapons in battle
Family is forever?
I always knew you a liar
We're leaving each other
We say our goodbyes
I can feel the hate
Emanating from your eyes
You know what they say
Isn't love is blind?
But you see my faults
Your love is a lie
Friday, April 19, 2013
To the Titan
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Karma
So Andrew and I play a game called 'Your Team.' You pick ugly people, and put them on the other persons team. It's pretty much like pointing to someone and saying 'you have to have sex with them.'
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Wednesday, April 17, 2013
25 and Obese
Now, changing my exercise and diet was not as easy as I had hoped. I had a routine. Wake up, shower, eat, get ready, eat, go to work, eat all day long, go home, eat, and go to bed. There was obviously no room for exercise of any kind in my day. I was going to have to rearrange some things.
I got up at 4:45, and was at the pool at 5 in the morning. I swam some laps, and was finished in time for my normal routine to start. But then I realized something. If I really wanted to change my body, I was going to have to change my eating habits, too.
Fuck.
I don't like salad. I don't like anything green, or healthy. I like candy. I have an entire drawer in my filing cabinet at work devoted to candy. I can't just waste it all!
So I started advertising it. I told my coworkers about my candy stash, and told them to have at it.
I wish this was possible. |